In response to my dad's question,
What life decisions are you contemplating ?
How to be a Christian in a nation whose president claims to be of the same faith but violates nearly every tenet of the religion that I feel to be important.
How to justify remaining comfortably in school, and spending thousands of dollars to do it, while the country that I live in and am part of is perpetuating violence and hatred not only here but across the world.
Wondering where to draw the line between working within the system to affect change and refusing to be a part of it. When does it become too corrupt to be worth anything?
Also, how did our society become so polarized? Why don't we discuss issues before we have to make huge decisions on election day? And, more personally and perhaps biased/bourgeouise, why don't people consider the far-reaching moral and ethical implications of their actions? Where is the value of critical thinking, understanding issues, and taking into account how policies will affect many, many individuals in extremely hurtful ways?
I'm angry and disappointed. Yes, partly because my guy lost, but mostly because of the polarization and unwillingness to discuss or ask questions about anything.
W.E.B. DuBois said in 1903, "Little of beauty has America given the world save the rude grandeur God himself stamped on her bosom; the human spirit in this new world has expressed itself in vigor and ingenuity rather than in beauty."
I think vigor and ingenuity too often translate to force and revenge, convenience and speed. And the beauty that we neglect is too often the inherent worth of each person, gay or straight, man or woman, pacifist or warmonger. Beauty is in the subtlety and in the nuance, in the gray areas that can be confusing, but in the confusion we find a more sophisticated, and, in the end, more effective and true view of the world.
There was no attention paid to nuance yesterday. There is no attention being paid to nuance today. If we don't start paying attention soon, the white and black dichotomy will tear us apart.
So, in the end, I guess I'm contemplating how best to acknowledge and teach the nuances so that we don't speed by the beautiful on our way to the vigorous.