What gifts did you give? What gifts did you receive?
isn't the point to forget the difference between giving and receiving?
or do i just not want to answer this question?
let's assume it's the former.
let's forget how giving (in, up, out) ought to be uncomfortable and getting ought to be easier.
let's just say this: maybe it is best to be neither giver nor getter but a middle-woman, an in-and-out account, a wholesaler, interpreter, conduit, exchange counter...a heart who pumps out and gathers back in. maybe it would be better to look at a life as dialysis, recycling air and cells and water, running it through this machine for a bit only to return it to the world a little while later. maybe i don't own anything, and maybe i ought to learn to live that way.
or maybe i just don't want to answer the question.